addicted to
i'm not here to win
i'm here to leave a legacy
i can't go the distance
it's the passion that drives you
endorphins
pain
exhaustion
chasing this insane dream
perfection
tagboard ;
guestbook
and i won't look back
i can go the distance
and i'll stay on track
no i won't accept defeat
it's an uphill slope
but i won't lose hope
till i go the distance
and my journey is complete
nice song. inspirational. i love the chords..
ok crap i feel dead x.x past few days have been hell. next few weeks will be hell. argh i'm so tired. life is so draining...
feel like i'm just not me anymore. every smile, every laugh...is just merely an attempt to escape from the truth. i hate pretending. i hate hiding. i hate being this me.
every new day, is another day of pain. but there's nothing you can do. just hold those tears in. keep yourself from doing what others would call "stupid". but it all builds up. all that pain, it just...accumulates. i don't like being so snappy. having such extreme moods. i can't control myself. and now i'm starting to resort to food to keep me from feeling what i really feel. food like chocolate. don't understand...
so many things i want to do really badly. i feel like everything i've dreamed of and aspired to be, has just been flushed down the drain. there's totally no more hope. no faith. and now i'm a disgrace to fielmente. i'm sorry. my grades are slipping, fitness level has dropped like a stone.
don't know who i am. feel so frustrated. everything's just gone... out of control. all i ever do is fail now really. seriously. realistically. yes, i am failing everything i set out to do. brings ur morale down tenfold.
wish that i could lean on a shoulder to cry on...
wish that perhaps i could pour my soul out to someone.
it's really not very pleasant to have so many things boxed up in yourself.
if i could just.. argh :(
with the big fake lies ;
and stupid smiles ;
__when deep inside you're `b l e e d i n g